Little boy Eric,
You will be ok.
You will get through all that is coming your way.
Know you are supported.
You may not know who it is that you are supported by.
You may not know what it is that supports you.
Just know that you are in fact supported, and that you will get through all the pain and traumas that life has in store for you.
I am sorry you will go through this. Although you don’t deserve any of it, you will go through it, so it is important for you to know and to trust for now that it is all temporary.
You will want to give up.
You will want to run away.
You will want to escape.
You will deny, pretend, repress and suppress so much within yourself, and that is ok too.
Please don’t beat yourself up. You are perfect, whole and complete just as you are.
There is nothing wrong with you, and there has never been anything wrong with you.
You are worthy of so much joy and fulfillment, and that is on the way eventually.
So hold on, little Eric.
When you are lost, confused and afraid, know that there is light at the end.
Just keep moving through it.
You got this.
The 47 year old man Eric